I have been dealing with my weight since I was a child- when I finally got it under control my father passed away- guess how I managed to cope with that: FOOD. I struggle to make my life a healthy, and satisfying life that I love to live.
I have been very nostolgic lately- trying to figure out what took me out of my rut. I was depressed, unfullfilled, angry, lost, negative, and fat.
Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with fat- a little fat is good for everyone but when you boom over 300 lbs you get pretty miserble.
Lately since after my father died I've fallen back into this rut. I need to find things to make me happy- to make my life worth living. I get good grades and work really hard. This could make me feel better than when I was totally run down when I first moved in with my father.
I really need to get over life and deal with my situation. How do I manage to do that?
That's why I've opened this blog to figure out what is depressing me, and what could help fullfill my life where food seems to fit in.
Love sometimes hinders my life- I seem to drop everything on my end to make the other person happy, usually the person doesn't try to make my life any better. Usually I try to hard to be a loving person and sometimes go to far- I just care about the person, and not myself.
Why do I let this happen to me? I think it could be becuase I get so wrapped up in my daily life with the person and obsess over how great the feeling is. Three years later can really take the fun out of the new, exciting relationship. I realize there are people who have been together for 20+ years and don't have these issues- but I am not those people, and neither is he.
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